while watching gladiator-
boys today are weird. I don’t understand.
or I know them too well.
They like to play with your mind.
to break you.
’Big Blue eyes’ is weird. He may come off mysterious or confusing, but I know just how he is. He tried to make me jealous, but it didn’t work. Now my strategy must change from what it was. I will not acknowledge him the next time I see him.
But after that I’ll look into his eyes, but not wave. It has to be precise. right before he waves I must look away.
I’m giving him that confusion. “wait…what was that look does she like me or..but why didn’t she wave back?”
he may not think about it at first, but late at night hid mind will race.
I must show him he cannot have me, that-cannot read my own writing- him. He has to be put in his rightful place. I will confuse him, spin him around before abruptly stopping him and telling him ‘by the way, i’m too good for you.’
OR
I can do nothing but give him that look. that look that says “I’m sorry you have issues, I’m sorry that I’m too good for you right now. I’m sorry youre nothing to me but a pair of big blue eyes.”
He could be so amazing if he wanted. but right now hes young and stupid. why cant they see how great i am with my flaws.
I’m the same old or dull and boring. I’m vivid, I’m a stream. I’m small but great.
-As for ‘Mummy look alike’ I will continue to give him a few glances and some long meaningful looks. Not looks of sexual attraction, but looks of how much I hope he becomes something great. And he does what his heart desires.
I think every guy deserves that look. I will only give it to the ‘pretty boys’ because they are the most confused and broken.
